170.. the eagle

everything..
is not as it seems..
everything..
is not as it is..
look forward..
and venture out..
for the answers are definitely not where you are now..

-quoted from star wars.


interesting phrase i suddenly remembered.
remembered this story norman told me couple of days ago
but, due to my bad memory, most of the story i cant remember
but this is my edited version. haha!


an eagle egg was lost and ended up with chicken eggs
it grew up and learnt the ways of the chicken not knowing its real identity and its hidden capabilities
the eagle grew up and at times, the farmer let them out to eat and play
one day, the small eagle saw a big eagle soaring above the skies with a snake in its mouth
it asked its mum, mummy mummy!! what is that?
the hen replied, son, its an eagle, it eats snakes and snakes eat us
now, get inside, hurry.
the eagle was puzzled,
why do we need to run??
the hen replied.. if the eagle drops the snake, it will eat us. thats life.
the next day, the small eagle ran into the big eagle at the mountains
the small eagle was frightened and tried to hide from the big eagle
sonny, why are you hiding? asked the big eagle
you will eat me, or bring the snake to eat me. replied the small eagle
eat you? haha! you are an eagle, you eat the snakes instead
but but, im a chick! i eat worms, i live in the farm with my family
you? a chick? look at your talons, your beak and your wings, you are not a chick in every ways.
but but, i cant fly!
fly? follow me, jump off this cliff and you shall become a true eagle.
with that, the big eagle jumps off and flew away
the small eagle thinking alot about what the eagle said and tried on a boulder, btu try as it might, the boulder was not high enough to take flight.
the next day, the big eagle returned and circled the skies
the small eagle thought about it and finally mustered all the confidence and courage it had and finally jumps off
the small eagle took flight that day and became a full-fledged eagle with its true identity back.

so, what is the morale of the story?
:)


think for youself. lets see how it relates..

Simplicity

Little I ask; my wants are few;
I only wish for a hut of stone,
That I may call my own;
And close at hand is such a one,
In yonder street that fronts the sun.

Plain food is quite enough for me;
Three courses are as good as ten;
If Nature can subsist on three,
Thank Heaven for three.
I always thought cold victual nice;
My choice would be always ice.

I care not much for gold or land;
Give me a mortgage here and there,
Some good bank-stock, some note of hand,
Or trifling railroad share,
I only ask that Fortune send
A little more than I shall spend.

Honors are silly toys, I know,
And titles are but empty names;
I would, perhaps, be Plenipo,
But only near St. James;
I'm very sure I should not care
To fill our Gubernator's chair.

Jewels are baubles, it is a sin
To care for such unfruitful things;
One good-sized diamond in a ring,
Some, not so large, in wedding bands,
A ruby, and a pearl, or so,Will do for me;
My dame should dress in cheap silk and leaves

I own perhaps I might desire
Some shawls of true Cashmere,
Some marrowy crapes of China silk,
Like wrinkled skins on scalded milk.
I would not have the horse I drive
So fast that folks must stop and stare;
An easy gait - two forty-five

Suits me; I do not care;
Perhaps, for just a single spurt,
Some seconds less would do no hurt.
Of pictures, I should like to own
Titians and Raphaels three or four,
I love so much their style and tone,
One Turner, and no more,
Of books but few, - some fifty score

Wealth's wasteful tricks I will not learn,
Nor ape the glittering upstart fool;
Shall not carved tables serve my turn,
But all must be of lies?
Give grasping pomp its double share,
I ask but one recumbent chair.

Thus humble let me live and die,
Nor long for Midas' golden touch;
If Heaven more generous gifts deny,
I shall not miss them much,
Too grateful for the blessing lent
Of simple tastes and mind content.

Take joy what what little possess,
Of the blessings and givings not much to spare;
Retract not, what evil it holds,
Count them twice the blessings, -thirty-fold,
With not much to count or see
Of simplicity, thats, all i need.

how may truly knows what simplicity is..
how many truly knows.. what i really seeks..

infinity and beyond

life, the countess of possibilities.
fate, the endless opportunity to hope.
destiny, the duke of hazzards to what lies ahead.
infinity, life is beyond..

with life, comes the fate and destiny,
for hope to what each and every man covet,
like love, like hatred, emotions of the skin-depth surface
seeps within the veins with the vile acts of time..

infinity, of fate, destiny ahead,
like a soft reset, it rests its heavy back on a timeless ends,
for power, control and responsibility,
the meekness of thy soul, lost in transit..

splitting paths, crossing fate,
the intermission of life intwined,
masked vengence, hidden truth,
the pillage and raze of a pirate's deal..

Kimi no kotoba wa
Yume no yasashisa kana?
Uso wo zenbu
OikakushiteruZurui yo ne

1000 words...
not enough..
eternity..
not enough..

for what lies in future,
what lies behind and ahead,
life's unexpectancy and million opportunities with possibilities,
are all just infinity and beyond..

Tabidatsu kimi ni
Sameta senaka misete
Kiiteita yo
Hitori tatakau no?
Zurui yo ne

"Kaettekuru kara"
Oikoshiteyuku kimi no koe
Iji hatte
Tsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Sakebeba yokatta?
Ikanai de to namida koboshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Haruka na
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete
Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wa
Kizutsuitakimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru

Yume no tsuduki wa
Kimi wo omoinagara
Ano hi no koto
Wasureta furishite
Zurui yo ne

"Tegami wo kaku kara"
Shisen sorashita kimi no koe
Iji hatteTsuyoi furi
Toki wo modoshite
Okoreba yokatta?
Matenai yo to kata wo otoshitara?
Ima wa dekiru
Donna koto mo

Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wo
Mienai Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubasa ni kaete
Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Tsukareta
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Dakishimeru

Ienakatta
1000 no kotoba wo
Lalalala..
Kimi no senaka ni okuru yo
Tsubaksa ni kaete
Kikoeteru?
1000 no kotoba wa
Lalalala..
Kimi no senaka ni yorisoi
Lalalalala....


-1000 words, from Final Fantasy X-2

twisting fate

Words twist and tumble
Through my mind
But I can't grab the right word
Or the right line
So we sit
In silence
But it’s not uncomfortable
In fact I love it
You rest your head on my chest
As we lay here
Lovers entwined
Hearts tangled
You raise your head
And look into my eyes
And I see our love
Almost as if it’s a real force
I don’t ever want to lose this moment
You lay your head on my chest once again
And now I can feel your heartbeat
And my hearts skips
And I finally find the words I’m looking for
I love you

sweeter grapes grow in bad soil

everyone loves the sweet sensations of life.
be it love, friendship or even the simple act of kindsness unto them.

but in life, sweet things oesnt necessary falls on good people.

a phrase i heard from times ago.
sweet grapes are grown not from the best of soil and best of fertiliser.
but sweet grapes grows best on bad soil.

with the act of nature upon the grapes,
the vines grows strong and deep into the soil,
the leaves spread wide to absorb the nutrients,
the fruits slowly seeps the nutrients and grows slowly and require less amount of nutrients and minerals to grow and soon, the sweetness in it circulates the fruit.

** by the way, that was no bull, heard it in a grape farm when i was at aus**


in life, each and every experiences will nurture your veins, your vines and your leaves,
you will grow strong and resist the negativities in life.
you will learn and mature in the age of time
and soon, the fruit of your hardwork shall be sweet.

i'll be there for you

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide
You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore
Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we've had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday
And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for youI'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you.




to those who've mattered, matters and will matter.

to friends that's there when im fickle minded, when im down and low, when im high and joyous
to friends that knows and understands, that's there when i need, and there for the times
to friends that shared and have memories with, that's part and made life out of me
to love that made me this, that made me walk out of the sorry past, that make me renewed
to family that's put up with me thus long.

these five words i swear to you,
I'll be there for you.

thanks for being there. now, its my turn.
i may have hurt,
i may have wrongs,
but believe me and know this,
regret is a feeling,
sorry is an action,
but being there, is the action that comes with the feelings.

thanks for all that you've done (friends, love and family)


**wonder what's e motivation to say those on top.
but well, friends are the foot stones in life,
love is the pathway to looking forward,
and family, the ground that your roots grow from.

the three things in life you must take joy from,
the three things in life i thank for having.
thus,
my promise, i'll be there for you.

to vien, thanks for the past months of memories, though we've shared our ups and downs, i'll play my part, i'll play it well. i'll give it a shot. so, let's play this well, let's be patient, let's be true. let us slowly reveal, what the future has instored for us.

to friends, my RP friends, thanks for putting up with my lameness and my ever fickle-mind lately. but bear with it longer, this dude here, he's gonna stay and continue irritating you guys. he;'ll be here. he promist.

to friends, my friends i've failed to meet lately, esp those from peirce. the memories are all in my heart and mind, thanks for all that we've shared. well, i'll be here. just a call away. never too far to reach. will always be my pleasure to help and serve.

to family, shit comes round and round, i'll set my place now and play my part. its never too late.

multi-coloured post. hehe. well, enjoy life people!

famous quote to end,

any idiot can face a crisis, but three words sums it all ---- it goes on..

the only constant in life is change

life is a series of collisions with the future and the past, its not the sum of what we've been but what we look forward to be

one of my fav songs ever

Wait, how long would you wait
Just for me to comeI know you make mistakes
yeah, butI hope some day you have it all
cause I feel like a prisoner
trapped inside this broken world
while I'm playing the victim again
running in circles
to me it's all the same
and though nothing's gonna change, still
I hope someday you have it all

take this aggravation that I've thrown myself into
change this situation just cause I need something new

and still I feel like a prisoner
trapped inside this broken world
while I'm playing the victim again
running in circlesto me it's all the same
and though nothing's gonna change, still
I hope someday you have it allI hope someday you have it all
if we could all dependon what we know
if you could understand
I'm losing control
that I'm losing control
that I'm losing control
that I'm losing control

- 88 , sum41

feeling bored... in class...

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your

Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along
just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your

Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along
just to make it through

Move along (Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong we move along (Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along


- Move along, all american rejects


Storming through the party like my name was el nino
When Im hangin out drinking in the back of an el camino
As a kid, I was a skid and no one knew me by name.
I trashed my own house party cause nobody came.

I know Im not the one you thought you knew back in high school
Never going, ever showing up when we had to.
Is it attention that we crave
dont tell us to behave,
Im sick of always hearing act your age.

I dont want to waste my time
Become another casualty of society.
Ill never fall in line
Become another victim of your conformity
And back down.

Because you dont
Know us at all we laugh when old people fall.
But what would you expect with a conscience so small.
Heavy metal and mullets its how we were raised.
Maiden and priest were the gods that we praised

Cause we like having fun at other peoples expense and,
Cutting people down is just a minor offence then,
Its none of your concern, I guess Ill never learn.
Im sick of being told to wait my turn.

I dont want to waste my time
Become another casualty of society.
Ill never fall in line
Become another victim of your conformity
And back down.


- Fat lips, Sum 41


I open my eyes I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge I'm hanging by a thread I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me


- Untitiled, Simple Plan


I need an alarm system in my house
So I know when people are creeping about
These people are freaking me out (these days)

It's getting hectic everywhere that I go
They wont leave me alone
There's things they all wanna know

I'm paranoid of all the people I meet
Why are they talking to me?
And why can't anyone see?

I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

I rock a law suit when I'm going to court
A white suit when I'm getting divorced
A black suit at the funeral home
And my birthday suit when I'm home alone
Talking on the phone got an interview
With the Rolling Stone they're saying
"Now you're rich and now you're famous fake ass girls all know your name now
And Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous your first hit arent you ashamed"
Of the life, of the life, of the life were living

I just wanna live
Don't really care about the things that they say
Don't really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live

- i just wanna live, Good charloette



Am I more than you bargained for yet?
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
that's just who I am this week

Lie in the grass next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost but you're just a line in a song

Drop a heart and break a name
We're always sleeping in and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And sugar we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded god complex
cock it and pull it

-sugar we're going down, fall out boys.




and the mtv music award goes to...........

Too close for comfort

i never meant the things I said
To make you cry and I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget and yes I regret
All these mistakes

I don't know why you're leaving me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes I watch as you cry
But it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I wanted in

What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
I'm driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names
Into the sand and told me you loved me
But now that I find that you've changed your mind
I'm lost for words

And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand, you won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I wanted in

What was I just about to discover
I got too close for comfort
driving you home
Guess I'll never know

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break it if you're that bored.
if you can that is.

interesting quotes

Ripped these quotes off www.quptationspage.com

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.

It is wise to apply the oil of refined politeness to the mechanisms of friendship.

Do not protect yourself by a fence, but rather by your friends.

He who has a thousand friends has not a friend to spare,And he who has one enemy will meet him everywhere.

All that really belongs to us is time; even he who has nothing else has that.

If time flies when you're having fun, it hits the afterburners when you don't think you're having enough.

Time cools, time clarifies; no mood can be maintained quite unaltered through the course of hours.

Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save.

ah. theres hell lots there. take a look.
you may just find the right solution to any problems you're facing.
the past has such wonderful effects on untangling messy situations
the future has such exciting surprises to be uncovered
the present has such acts of suppression, to make you better.

The dark-faced loner

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost, The road untaken.


To lose one's faith surpasses
The loss of an estate,
Because estates can be
Replenished, -- faith cannot.
Inherited with life,
Belief but once can be;
Annihilate a single clause,
And Being's beggary.
The dark-faced loner stands in misery

The winds drew off
Like hungry dogs
Defeated but by a single bone.
Through fissures & quakes in volcanic cloud
The yellow lightning shown.
The trees held up
Their mangled limbs
Like animals in pain,
Like nature falls upon herself,
Beware then, an Ancient Law!
The very law, the dark-faced loner stands strong upon

An Anceitn Law of joy & sorrow
Of which the elders speak from heart
Your joy young little yee,
is your sorrows unmasked
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was often
times filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being,
the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that hold your wine
the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit,
the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart
and you shall find
it is only that which has given you sorrow
that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart,
and you shall see that in truth
you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow,"
and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come,
and when one sits alone with you at your board,
remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales
between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver,
needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

For as they say Time changes things, but i say to thee,
"you change yourself as time brings you forth"
As only you can change your own life, noone can do it for you.
where time is the only constant, the signal for rebirth
that sorrows and joys be inseparable
so as changes in time to go
Change has a such an impact on the human mind.
To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse.
To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better.
To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better.
But to the meek and sorry ones, it is a destructive force of nature acting on the fearful, hopeful and confident ones.

Any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self
will require not just small adjustments
in your way of living and thinking but a full-on metamorphosis.
The more things change, the more they remain... insane.

For changes comes as time goes by
for as sorrows comes for a better joy to pass
for as mistakes makes the meek lose hope
for as chances are given yet taken for granted by
for as hope be dim and clouded dark
for as i, the dark-faced loner
unmask his hidden eyes

the dark-faced loner, lost and gone.
the dark-faced loner, the clueless poet
the dark-faced loner, the lsot misionary
the dark-faced loner, the idealist, gone wrong.
the dark-faced loner, insane as it goes.

at the beginning... again..

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you
back to the beginning where false be undone
No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start
may do us more good den we can expect
And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

In the end I wanna be standing at the beginning with you

friendhship poem

A featured friendship poem i came across this morning.
sounded kinda interesting. :)


We laid back and let it all flow out
the topic of trust never once had a doubt,
for within my mind and heart as well
was an image and vibe as clear as a bell.
You were very special to me and more
I had a feeling inside I never felt before.
A trust so great and strong
I wanted this trust to take away all the wrong
and return to me a mended soul.
My mended soul would then release a new angel beside the other one
and together we would stroll the heavens,
our times are over and done.
For we have then won the battle within
and now we rest for created we have a personality twin,
Think alike, talk alike, say the same thing.

It is time we are to ascend
for we have reached the territory of a best friend.

But friendships break even the best of ones
then all me have established becomes undone.
Your job as my angel is then complete
because you have left me with only my pen and sheet.
I am now forced to record what I feel to something unlike you and I,
it's not real.
I'm talking to myself, every single word
I write to paper but what I'm saying goes left unheard.

All this because of you my angel, you are no longer beside me
though I beg and pleaour friendship just wasn't meant to be.

But do not worry my pen is okay
For within my heart our memories will always stay,
Forever...
because a part of you will be with me always, to forget you
Never...

blurrified memories

Young man, there's no need to feel down.
I said, young man, pick yourself off the ground.
I said, young man, 'cause you're in a new town
There's no need to be unhappy.
those were memories that may never matter again
Young man, there's a place you can go.
I said, young man, when you're short on your dough.
You can stay there, and I'm sure you will find
Many ways to have a good time.
those were times that our friendship felt real
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
yet when reality plays its game again
They have everything for young men to enjoy,
You can hang out with all the boys ...
it rips all these away
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
now everything is blurrified and may be lost
You can get yourself clean, you can have a good meal,
You can do whatever you feel ...
now everything may just be gone
Young man, are you listening to me?
I said, young man, what do you want to be?
I said, young man, you can make real your dreams.
But you've got to know this one thing!
but i have not given up
No man does it all by himself.
I said, young man, put your pride on the shelf,
And just go there, to the y.m.c.a.
I'm sure they can help you today.
not liike once before
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
theres still salvation at the end
They have everything for you men to enjoy,
You can hang out with all the boys ...
im ready for all the shots and flares
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
im prepared to take a long journey
You can get yourself clean, you can have a good meal,
You can do whatever you feel ...
i will work it slow but surely
Young man, I was once in your shoes.
I said, I was down and out with the blues.
I felt no man cared if I were alive.
I felt the whole world was so jive ...
i will stay and stick around like i said
That's when someone came up to me,
And said, young man, take a walk up the street.
It's a place there called the y.m.c.a.
They can start you back on your way.
but please have faith once mroe again
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a.
let the wall be down even if its a little
They have everything for young men to enjoy,
You can hang out with all the boys ...
for im charging in once again
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a
to break this wall down again
Young man, young man, there's no need to feel down
Young man, young man, pick yourself off the ground
so hate me scold me or kill me
It's fun to stay at y-m-c-a
It's fun to stay at the y-m-c-a
but this friendship, im gonna save
Young man, young man, are you listening to me?
Young man, young man, what do you wanna be?
y-m-c-a
you are a friend i cannot lose.

The reason... is you..

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you (x4)

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
z.....
the reason is you...
to change who i used to be..
to make the wrongs right..
to make the faults better..
to do something more..
to be something better..
to love someone more..
the reason... is you..

collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

do do do do x 4

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhym
eOut of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

do do do do x 4

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometime
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

do do do do x 8

Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

do do do do x2

Finally find
You and I collide

do do do do x 2

You finally find
You and I collide

do do do do x 8

The dance of terror

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilight
Shadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul
A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the craze
All in bewilderment
Of the shock that comes in waves
Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see
The final dance of terror sights
Is this what's meant to be seen?

Winter

The silent whispers in the winter nights,
the lonely travels of thy confused minds.

The chilly wind and piercing cold,
accompanies the dark and solemn minds.

The bitter-cold winter embrace thy lonesome child,
robs the light, thee winter darkness clouds.

The winter season comes and goes,
but the days and months pass so slow.

The tears of joys and sadness rolls,
by the chilly winds, the tears froze in time.

The bitter-sweet misery of loneliness in winter,
encapsules the wild imagintaions.

The lost and racing minds, thy miserable lonely child,
excruciating pain, thats the winter night's cry.

to those who thought so..

firstly...
i need to explain something to people who i thought knew me and understood.
this information is forcefully dug up by a very very need-to-know-it-all.

misunderstandings misunderstandings misunderstandings..
when will such cases end..

for those who think im referring to you.
please refer to my girl's blog. and the password is my current class.
only those involved should or may remember.

fear

Fear is a powerful biological feeling of unpleasant risk or danger, either real or imagined.
Psychologists have argued that fear, along with a few other basic emotions such as joy and anger, is innate in all human beings. Fear is a defensive, survival advantage, and may have evolved in a variety of organisms. It is usually a response to a particular stimulus. For example, a person may see a huge monster before them and fear, the defensive tool is everyone warns them about the danger and shuns from it thus telling them to escape from the monster and be safe from danger.

thus, when someone say... never fear sth... screw them.. scratch that.. fear it.. but choose the right battles to fight... a lost battle doesnt mean a lost war..

odds

How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take

- against all odds, Phill Collins.

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

- Only love, Trademark.


The man with thousand faces.
with a single bottle in his left hand
with a shield of faith on the other
magics casted for the propriations.

the man with thousand faces.
bleed to death with the pokes of fake-ness
O great magic casted and O great thy world
sturdy shields, sharp edges.

the man with thousand faces.
read his books, went to library
consequencial actions no longer
thicker, harder, stronger.

the man with thousand faces.
words not words, acts not acts
magic off caster off casting off
late late late.

the man with thousand faces.
nothing more to say.
pseudo-ism
the new trend.
life? it sucks
but not when you have the right things to accompany

Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don’t be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad
Don’t hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide
I get angry too
Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you
I’ll stand by you
Won’t let nobody hurt you
I’ll stand by you

Take me in into you darkest hour
And I’ll never desert you
I’ll stand by you

- I will stand by you, The pretenders


Lying awake, I turn to you
As you are softly sleeping
I think of what I'd like to do
While you are somewhere dreaming
I...I feel so happy by your side
Oh, why...I wonder, wonder, wonder why

Find it hard to find the words
To say what I am feeling
I'm so in love, I'm so alive
And I know you're the reason
Why...why I'm so happy all the time
Oh, why...I wonder, wonder, wonder why

I need nothing else in life
Than to hold you
I...oh, I am in so deep
I don't need no sleep
I just need you here with me
Baby, I live for loving you
(Ooh, la la la la la la la)Live for loving you
All I wanna do is love you, love you

It would never cross my mind
To find another lover'
Cause, after having been with you
There could be no other
I...just touching you, I'm satisfied
Oh, why...I wonder, wonder, wonder why

I need nothing else in life
Than to hold you
I...oh, I am in so deep
I don't need no sleep
I just need you here with me
Baby, I live for loving you
(Ooh, la la la la la la la)Live for loving you
All I wanna do

Is live for loving you
(Ooh, la la la la la la la)I live for loving you
All I wanna do is love you, love you

- Live for loving you, Gloria Estefan

defy odds. if you can...

your future lies...

destiny... fate... the inevitability of life..
the predetermined path..
the prophetic declarations..
the unavoidable occurance..

what is life in the face of the happenstance?
what is life in the stance of the asperity of consequence.
what is life then, in the comparison of the deliberate and act of luck?
life... the predetermined path??
life.. the prophetic declaration??
life.. the unavoidance occurance??
destiny, fate or just the inevitable..

life is a road..
life is a journey..
life is a river..
life is now and forever..
but the intervention of fate & destiny causes the inevitable intertwine meetings that makes life a wonderful adventure..

but who decides destiny?
but who determines fate?
but who causes the inevitable?
a higher being?
God?
or is all a preset preview of hell & heaven in a place known as earth?
or could all be just an illusion of the pyschiat being of the human mind?
or it could just be the consequence of humane actions day-to-day.

if life is but a consequencial event..
do we have control over it?
even so, does that mean we are the higher beings of ourselves?
the God of interposition of our personality and consequences.
the God that brings in regrets, remourse and resentments.
the God that in chance brings love, peace and harmony.
thus bringing the joys, happiness and prosperity to its beings.

being so, are we each and every one a god of our own?
a god with full control of our consequencial events, life?
a higher being that illuminates your own path,
a higher being that plans and navigatges its own directions?
a higher being that moves itself to where they want to?
thus being the omnipotent divinity.
are we capable of ascending such providence?
are we deserving of such power and control?
are we just humane... or divine..?

the divinity of human acts..
when faced and challenged by the jaws and fangs of the world..
the cold and bitter miseries of living..
are our aptitude enough to carry such threats and burdens?
what rewards and gratitudes do we receive or expect for conquering?
to overpower the wolves and sharks of the world?

Money.. Work.. Stress.. Burdens..
the worldly issues of absolute greed and sins..
the covet and jealousy of one's being.
the weariness and tiredness of working.
yet what rewards does the almighty receive?

excellence receives more work
richness attracts burglers
innocence results in cheats
the vile society rips even the purest and true
the ruthless environment pushes beyond limits
the cruel world sends deities down rock-bottom

but it doesnt matter what people want you to be..
but it doesnt matter what people think you should be..
but it doesnt matter what people hope you become..
does it?

you are the ruler of your own life.
the omnipotent force in your world.
the majesty of your own fate and destiny.

thus. what matters is what you want.
thus. what matters is what you hope for.
thus. what matters is what you aim for.
thus. what matters is what you work for.

noone can force you to be what you choose not to be.
life is but a journey within your grasp.
why forgo the control of absolute power?

your future is where you set yourself to go
your future is what you seek to have
your future is who you wish to be
your future is why you should strive all along
your future is how you acheive your goals
your future is when you found meaning to life

where your treasure lies, there your heart lies too.
where does your future point to?
you are the alpha and omega of your own life.
you are God of interposition.
dont forgo the power. dont forgo the control.
dont forgo life.